Accused The 3rd Time On Something I'm Totally Innocent Of.

Hey. Okay, I'm back. =.=

Thanks cous - my lovely cousin who typed in my cbox. :) Yeah, you're right, nobody's perfect. Maybe that was the worst day I had for now ever since the year started. That's why I had to let out something, not in the form of faeces but through blogging. Ahh, cousin, how I wish I can go over to NZ with you. And leave everything behind here. Cuz everything here in Malaysia is just..... okay. That's not the point of this post of mine.

Anyway, just wanna say how some people could be so unreasonable accusing others of something they did not do. Here it goes...

This morning, I went to school as usual, sat in the line of my class during assembly. We do that everyday before going to class by the way. Then a few minutes later, this lady... who happens to be my school's disciplinary teacher came to the side of me, she caught one of the girl who had dyed her hair. (- we aren't allowed to dye our hair if you don't know.) And later asked her to walk to the front of the assembly area.

Me, still in my sleepy mood, so happened watched that whole scene of teacher catching girls-who-dye-hair happen. (- I turn my head to the left to see what happen.) Deep down in me honestly, I had the feeling that she would find fault with me.

So I turn my head back to the front to act like I was listening to what the teacher was annoucing in front. Then true enough... That disciplinary teacher called "eh, kamu juga." - Eh, you also. I told her, "I didn't dye my hair." God knows why I spoke to her in English. >.< "Pergi saja." - Just go to the front.

She didn't even want to listen to what I have to say. >.< So being the obedient one, I followed her ORDER. - She ordered me, you can say. I went in front, there were other three girls who got caught too.

*Deep down in me, I was kinda afraid. What if she don't believe me? WHAT A SCAREDY CAT. I KNOW. THAT'S WHAT I HATE ABOUT MYSELF. NO CONFIDENCE. :(* But later I tried calming myself down, "Sarah you didn't do it, why do you need to be afraid of?!"

After that disciplinary teacher finished finding victims who apparently dyed their hair, she came towards us and asked us once again. Did we dye our hair. My friend, Jia Yuan and I said no. But the other two girls admitted. Of course we said no. Cuz IT IS our natural colour. You can't blame us to have such nice hair colour, can you?!

Then that disciplinary teacher told us to walk elsewhere, where another disciplinary teacher was present. =.= Then again, my friend and I had to tell that our hair is natural colour. =.= That other displinary teacher then touched my friend's hair and then she touched my hair, trying to feel the condition of our hair whether they had been dyed or not. *I almost wanted to faint already.. not because I was scared.. But because it's such a small thing, and yet they are making it into such a big deal* She also started walking around us. Hahaha. That was seriously funny. It looked like she was checking us out. Checking what kinda hairstyle she wants to cut the next time she looks for her hairstylist?

We kept saying that if they don't believe, they CAN call our parents. But I guess they don't wanna waste their credit to call and rather waste our time still thinking whether we dyed or not. I was shaking my head thinking that it was so ridiculous. Cuz I had been caught twice before this. And my mum wrote a letter to one of the teachers before stating clearly that I didn't dye my hair. >.<

My friend helped me though by telling the teacher that I didn't dye my hair. It was so nice of her. :) Knowing that we don't usually talk but she still helped me. I'm thankful for that.

It took us almost 10-15 minutes there, waiting to see if they believe that it is our natural colour or not. The other two who admitted that they dyed their hair was asked to see another teacher. Goodness. I guess teachers nowadays could do much better as inspectors rather than teaching kids and wasting kids' time. But still, they need a whole lot more of training, because it took so long time for them to tell whether we were telling the truth or not.

Then after much waiting, that another disciplinary teacher finally let us go. So my friend and I walked back to our places.

My friends kept asking what happened and I had to tell the whole story. Lol. Such small thing could cause such a commotion.

Later during recess, so happened I looked almost like a zombie like the ones in L4D today - (lack of sleeping hours), another friend of mine told me to chill and that he heard about what happened to me. I thought to myself.. What happened? Did he mean about my previous post?

But no... haha. He said.. you got 15 demerit points right? I got a shocked. Haha. CRAZY. 15 demerit points is A LOT. Then I had to explain the whole thing again. He actually thought I dyed my hair too. =.= Pfft. What kinda friend is this? Most of my friends know I was innocent and that I have naturally brown hair.

All I can say is.. My friend and I have naturally brown hair and we didn't get any 15 demerit points or whatsoever.

I hate being accused of something I didn't do. And I had been accused for many things many times also. And I'm so sick of it. So please, find out first before accusing people of doing something will ya? Cuz it's so sickening. Okay, that's all for now. Till then. God bless ya.

Tomorrow's gonna be a big day for CF! :) God bless our CF.

I Could Barely Feel My Heart.

This may be my last post of this blog.. If you manage to read this, then consider yourself blessed. :)

I'm just having thoughts about making this blog private or just delete it off so that every past of mine will be wiped out and never remembered anymore.. -I'm not asking for any sympathy from you to beg me not to delete, if you intend to. Even if you don't intend to, it's okay.-

I've got to admit that sometimes, I do not have the confidnce in myself in something and there I go making a fool out of myself, at least that's what I think of myself.. But.. there are times too when I'm being too confident of myself, I would get all disappointed and would go whining till I get all drained out and tired.. Like now.

Okay I'm beating around the bush. Yeah, and I'm disappointed with myself mentally and physically because I just worry about too much things in life. I worried about what would people think of me, I worried about what would he/she do if he/she knows about this of me, I worried just about every single tiny little things in the world. And this is just wearing me out very quickly.

I guess I'm having too much burdens in me. That's the thing.

So yeah.. Not exactly all I wanted to say from my heart. Yeah, from the title you could know I could barely feel my heart. Maybe that's why I can't type everything I feel here. Basically it's because I can't feel anything. I guess I'm turning to a heartless person. Not to evil heartless but the emotionless heartless.

Maybe by being that way I could worry less about the world. Oh yeah, maybe the crazy things happening around the world is part of why I'm giving up hope on being too hopeful. I'm sick of going according to people's mood. I'm sick of being the puppet. I'm sick of not being able to express how I feel in person and only expressing through blogs and diaries.

Okay, maybe I'll make a decision on what to do about this blog, and.. soon do something about it by end of this month. Anyway, what's the point of blogging if no one cares? Fame isn't everything. I've once thought of wanting to be really really famous, I admit. But it's not as easy and nice as you think it will be. Time and again you see stars rising up really quickly because of something and one day, if they fall, they would fall right deep into the earth's core and no one recognizes their good deeds but everyone would remember their evil doings for generations after generations.

So that's about it. I notice I could type a lot when I'm down but could barely type a single word when I'm all happy and jolly. Weird. Okay, God bless all and see you next time if I ever feel like blogging again. Don't worry though I feel way down right now, I would not do anything silly to myself just to get people's attention. I ain't that silly.

Goodbye and toodles once again. Life's tough.

<3,>

~*SaraH*~

There's Fire Everywhere.

I just don't understand why people keeeeeeeeeeep on saying we SHOULD NOT do something, yet they do it to others??? Time and again, teaching the students in school? on TV and radio?

WHAT IS THIS?! It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CONTRADICTING and... it's getting on my nerves!!! AJ and I personally witnessed one happening today. I shall not mention what the matter was, but follow what the Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth says. - Romans 12 : 21. If you do not have one, here's what the verse says..

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Just so you - (those who you think you are) wait. :) He's definitely planned out something for us, and He knows that these things will happen. So, let's just leave it into His hands and we will overcome EVIL with GOOD. We're not gonna live by what we see and we're not gonna live by what we feel. Cuz we know that He's with us, deep down in us. And we know that, He can do ANYTHING! Nothing Is Impossible! Amen?

Here's a post on a wedding my family and relatives attended in Temerloh back in the year 2009. Haha. Didn't had the time to do so.. So now I'll make it short and sweet and quicccckkk! xD Here's when you see supergirl coming. :P

One's my 2nd cousin and the other's my cousin. :D Don't play play k.. Kids (my 2nd cousin) nowadays have expensive stuffs with them wherever they go.. No it's not handphone.. Not laptop either.. It's their super addictive PSP. =.= Hahaha. When they're glued to the PSP, you can never get their attention only until you call their name AT LEAST thrice. SERIOUS. But super adorable kid. :)

Little Tung Teng. Haha. That's its name. Tung Teng. :P It looks so much like a soft toy, don't you feel like hugging it? :D
The newlyweds! :)

Then came dinner time. Told you this is a supergirl's post. xD Everything is going so fast.

Hehehehehehehe. xD After looking at this for some time, I realise that all three of us in this photo were doing the same thing. Putting both our hands together in front of us. HAHAHA. Funny man!!

The guys. Now they're all grown into young handsome men. :) Heheh. *Remember the deal? The deal of spending me Starbucks if I said IT on my blog is still on right?* Haha. Just joking, cousins. :D

Now these girls has grown into b-e-a-u-tiful swans. Agree? HAHAHA. You bet you do! :D

My cousin who I always played with during the younger days. :) Now she's soo busy and I am so busy with school too. :( And so... we're now in our sooooooo busy lifes.. Never really had the chance to catch up with her already.... Soon, she'll be leaving for UK. Why oh why.. Everyone's leaving... :(

My 'hansem' papa and my 'pweety' mummy. :) Love them to bits POWDER. LOL! xD

Sorry la, sometimes I guess Asians do not express their love towards one another in person but they do it rather openly on the net like on the blog which is also like someone like me. HAHAHA. Realise the repetitions of LIKE? Somehow I think people who say 'like' in their sentences like 100 times sound quite like a blond. HAHA. Sorry no hard feelings. Not trying to be a hair colour-ist here. HAHAHA.

I do that at times too. Like don't know when. Like why not you just catch me doing it in person? Like if you do know me in person. :X Hahaha. Must be the nap I got just now that made me like so energetic now. Like I feel so much not like a zombie anymore. Hahahaha. Like like like. xD Goodness gracious. Hahaha. Like Omgoodness. Like. Ok enough. :D

That's my aunty. Lol. She's not old.. She's around 25 only I guess? I guess it's just that the generation last time went all haywire. I even have aunty who is a year older than me. Heheh.

It was a super huge hall. Super super huge. Guess it was super super expensive too. xD Getting married nowadays is not easy ya know. Haha. *thinks to self.. ok lah, I'll just take care of papa and mummy only lah..* LOL.

The people who I lived with for the past 16 years and 8 months of my life. :) Love them to powder again. Hahaha. :P

I should have taken my hand and the flower off my face, shouldn't I? Haha. Just showing how the atmosphere was during that night. Looks warm and cosy huh? But it was freezing cold! Like totally!

The bride and us! So sweet and pretty right? :D Hahaha. Sorry guys, she's ALREADY taken, can't you see? xD

Lol! You don't usually see sisters doing this do you? xD Now you do, and you should feel so blessed! Hahahaha. *Do not underestimate the power of having naps in the afternoon - see the results, the way Sarah types now? xD*

Sisters and cousin. :) You do not want to see the other continuous snap shots we took. Hahaha. You would laugh your head off. :P

Next day was going home day.. Wasn't actually feeling well throughout the whole trip. So see the tired face of mine..

Just a little wide smile for the last group picture with the relatives. :) Hehehe. I'm blessed because I have a family and a lot of relatives and I thank God for each and everyone of them. :)

Ohhhkay. That's all for now. Gotta bathe and get ready for dinner. Hope you all have a nice week ahead! :) Take care all and God bless y'all! :D One more thing....

Happy 17th Birthday KMPY - Kimberly Mak... P. Y.!! May God bless you abundantly!

KMPY sounds like kimpy. Not kempy not skimpy but kimpy! Maybe that's a good nickname for ya. xD She doesn't like me calling her by her chinese name. So her chinese name wouldn't be revealed unless she reveals it herself. Hahah.

I've never regret knowing you. :) Hehe. *counting the years we've been friends.....* O.O OMGOODNESS.

It has been 9 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Almost a decade! Goodness gracious. I definitely thank God for good friend like this. :) I know this acronym's lame but.. I just have to type it out.. Hahaha.

Friends

Remain

And

Never

Can

End

You bet it's true! :) Have a great day girl! :D You're now legal to get a driving license and hit the road. But... just be very very very very careful yeah. Hahahah. Goodness. Can't believe it that I will also be able to drive a car very soon. O.O Unbelievable. Like totally. Haha. Alrighty, that's all for now. Toodles! :D

New Year, New Image.

Whaddya think? :)

Happy New Year btw!

That header of mine wasn't taken anywhere from the internet or whatsoever. - note to rf. I took it in K.Selangor quite sometime ago, and that is God's beautiful and wonderful creation. ;) Awesome ain't it? :D Thought of giving my blog a brand new look. But I still miss it being pink though. Hahaha.

Oh well, sometimes we gotta let go of something somehow, even if we don't want or feel like to. You agree with me? Okay, I ain't really blogging about how I miss my blog to be pink. Haha. It would just seem weird, cuz turning a blog from purplish blue to pink is easy peasy. Lol.

It's just some problem occuring towards some people around me. I would advice the person to let go and stop wasting time before it is too late. It isn't easy but somehow when we know something is wrong, we can't just go forcing our way through. Somehow somewhere, the problem will just occur again and we will all be upset about it all over again. Sorry I couldn't advice in person, cuz somehow, I just lack of self-confidence in advising and would just go tongue-tied, not knowing what to say and do. By the way, I loathe feeling that way. Like really really loathe it to the max. Sometimes I just feel like whacking myself up cuz why can't I be just a lil more confident in what I say and do?

:( Maybe it takes time to do all these, but I sure do hope I will be a little a lot more confident in future. And to the one you think I'm talking about you in this post, I'll pray for you that you will find a way to solve the problem you're facing now. I hope you'll also seek and wait for God's answer to open your eyes and mind to face the problem with no fear and regrets. :) I'm sure you will overcome it with wisdom and power from God. Cuz Ps. Henry said we've got the power to empower completely! :)

Alright, that's all I can say for now. So much for sleeping early. Haha. Trying to train myself to sleep early these few days. But just look at the time now. O.O Right, toods! (Which means toodles in short. Made that myself. Hahaha. Just like boomz and shings by Ris L. HAHAHAHA. Do you have one made up word of yourself? What's your made up word? It'll be interesting to know. Click comment a.k.a cotton candy down here. Comments are much appreciated.)

The Year Is Coming To An End.

Wow! Time please go slower.. Omgoodness. I just can't believe it I'm gonna be 17 next year! Like what?! And another 3 years I won't be a teenager anymore.. Goodness! Someone please slow down the world...! Just a few days ago, my dad was cleaning the toys my sisters and I played when we were still cute lil girls.. ALL the memories came back..

I really miss being a kid. :( I miss sleeping over at my cousins' place. Hahaha. The times when I got to play The Sims in Sue Vern's house. The times when I played barbie dolls with her. The times I slept over at Mark's. The times we all love going Genting in big group of families and sitting on all the rides. While some rides we couldn't go for because of our height.. and I know we definitely wouldn't forget how we made Mark reach 'the height'. LOL. I miss old times. I miss being a kid. :( I don't wanna grow up so fast! :'(

Anyway, just gotta accept the fact that I'm growing old. Sigh.. Haha. Oh well, I bet 2010 is gonna be a tough year. Just gotta go through with the help of God and trust in Him always and I'm sure it'll all be fine. :)

Hmm, and I'm only blogging about how my Christmas was this year, now.. I've got others to blog about also but.. Hahaha. We shall wait for the time when I'm free again. :)

This year's Christmas, I got to go caroling with my church's youth group twice. :D Caroling around houses is fun! You get to spread the gospel at the same time while caroling. :) Hehe.

Looking hot in red. HAHAHAHA. Joking. xD

This little girl is sooo cute and chubby! Doesn't she just give you the feeling of wanting to squeeze her? HAHA. xD

Now, this is on the Christmas night itself. Normally my family and I would spend the Christmas night with our relatives. But this year was something different, we spent our Christmas night at one of my churchmember's house. I do miss spending Christmas night with my relatives though, but I guess we'll have more chances of doing so the next time. ;) Just that most of my cousins will be flying to other countries for studies.. :( Then the people in the house will just get lesser and lesser every year. :(

Okay, let's make this post a lil bit brighter. Hahah. Remember I said kids nowadays are just so different from the way kids were the last time like how I used to be? The innocent and angelic me.. and you if you are older or the same age as me. Cuz kids younger than me can do stuffs beyond imagination. LOL. Good or bad, it depends. HAHA. They just amaze you every single second.

Just look at this. HAHAHA. Normally kids would just go PEACE! or just say CHEEESE! But look at them now. So good in posing you don't even have to teach them. :D LOL.
This kid's cute too! I bet you know who is he impersonating. LOL! Lemme give you an obvious hint. The kid thinks moon walking is walking backwards. HAHAHA.

Hahaha. Cheeky boy. xD

Now these few pictures you're about to see is also what I miss doing. :(

Lol. But we did a mini one instead of the real thing. Cuz we were dealing with minis. Hahaha. :D

But I wasn't a base the last time, I was a flyer. Lol. Not a very very really successful one but I miss being one. :'( *Calling all Hollaback members.. Can we reunite? HAHA.*

Last picture of the year. :) Be back for more the next year! Which is like tomorrow? HAHAHA. Take care and toodles! God bless y'all! :D

Bye bye 2009.. HELLO 2010!